Stepping into Intimidation (Life After College)

“We don’t stop going to school when we graduate.” ~ Carol Burnett

       It has almost been a full month since I graduated with my bachelors; however, it only feels as if I am just on winter break. Now that my roommate has gone back to school, reality is finally setting in; I am now an alumni of Fort Lewis College.  Alike many others who have already graduated, and many who have yet to feel this phenomenon, it gives me mixed emotions.

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Aqui Te Espero

“I choose you. And I’ll choose you over and over and over. Without pause, without a doubt, in a heartbeat. I’ll keep choosing you.” – Unknown

Our paths crossed on a Sunday afternoon  (August 29, 2015). It was my third week in Puerto Rico, and my roommate (Amy) invited me to go to the beach with her and a friend (Brian). I had no idea we were even picking anybody up until Brian called his friend to be ready in ten minutes. As soon as he walked out of his house my heart stopped; here was this incredibly attractive latin man and he was walking my way. I was trying to suppress my giddiness and not act stupid, but I could not help myself from smiling as he opened the door.

It was not easy knowing that the person you are falling for is going to be far away once December came; not only did I originally live in Colorado, he was also starting the US Marines in February. We knew we had many obstacles to overcome but that didn’t intemidate us from growing closer and closer together.

Ever since meeting this man, I have lived a happier life. He is both my best friend and my boyfriend. He has helped me work though so many insecurities and walls I have put up. He cares for me when I am sick, calls me beautiful even when I gained weight or look like I woke up in hell, he calms me down when I am anxious, and supports and cheers me on to be the best.  He’s the man I have always dreamed of, but never thought I would get the opportunity to love. I am so thankful to have somebody in my life who is as loyal, caring, supportive, loving, and thoughtful.

It’s funny because everyone tells me how surprised they are to see me in a long distance relationship since I used to always be so against them. However it only took the right person to change that. I do have to admit that is difficult and hard; everyday we have to deal with  conflicting schedules, sometimes we miscommunicate or there is a lack of communication, most often one of us is stressed or having a bad day, etc. Sometimes the hardest part is not knowing when I am going to see him again.

I will always be by his side as his best friend and his girlfriend. I cannot wait for the day that I will be close by his side and we aren’t separated, however I will continue to wait for however long I have to.

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Long Distance;

Status of this unadorned blog:

          Because I am currently working 30 hours a week and take 15 credits of classes that love to give me an insane amount of homework and projects; I lack any time to keep my blog more then a post every blue moon or so. And quiet honestly when I am rewarded the  opportunity free moment,* I either take a quick nap or write letters to my best friend/boyfriend who is currently in the marines. However, I could’t resist posting this poem I found because it explains my feelings at the moment. Even though, this relationship is rather young in time, there are times when a person can tell the connection they have to somebody is worthwhile.

Don’t let the miles between us
Keep our love apart
Just listen close and you will hear
The beating of my heart

No distance, will ever keep
My heart from loving you
There are no more tears for it to weep
For a love that runs so true

I’ll be there with you one day soon
To love you everyday
And then my heart will sing a tune
And you will hear it say

I’ve finally found my one true love
As true as one can be
And now your all I’m thinking of
Forever stay with me

Author: Unknown

 

*free moment: Has an undefined amount of time, because it varies every time this phenomenon occurs. The phenomenon occurs commonly when one procrastinates their homework; or becomes distracted because the of the lack of being focused during their homework.

The Desire to Travel, Even During the Impossible

Whenever I have troubles with insomnia (or have homework to procrastinate) I travel somewhere. However, these journeys do not involve airports or planes and bidding farewell. These quests simply require the use of one simple tool: my computer, so I can access my photo albums! And a big thanks to Marty McFly, because we all learner and know that the best ways to travel…is back in time.
The moment my eyes see a photo, I can instantly travel the networks of my brain to that specific memory. The details of each photo contains vary, but each have some sort of thought and memory. The simple facts about the photo are what come the quickest; the location, time range/date, who is in it, what camera I used, etc. And automatically the rest of the information will be accessible. I.e. what or who inspired me to take the photo, who it was intended for, what I did that day and who I was with, my thoughts and feelings. Sometimes I could remember my goals, accomplishments, motivations, and even if I bought something that day.

On occasion it can be difficult; the desire to travel will become ineberating to the point that I feel imprisoned; I see people who I miss and wish to be close to; I even can remember events that I’ve tried to annihilate from my memory. Yet the absolute worst part, is when I am not able to recognize the individual staring back at me in the photo…but in reality, it is just me looking at a photo of myself. Nevertheless, the contents of my history cannot be tampered with. They are permanent (whether I like it or not) and each one has shaped me into the person I am today. These memories for better or for worse, have taught me many life lessons and they will continue to to teach me more. And with every storm that came into my life, I was fortunate enough to have the support and care I needed and could ever wish for.

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Puerto Rico

Today marks the eleventh day I have been on this beautiful island, and the more time that passes, the more I do not want to return home. However, that is not possible..so I will enjoy my time here while it lasts (which will be very easy.) For those who do not know, I am studying in Mayagüez, Puerto Rico for the Fall semester of 2015.

When I first arrived to Puerto Rico, I was experiencing a bit of culture shock. I found this rather surprising because I had lived in Costa Rica for six months in the year before. I think this occurred because Puerto Rico is a latin island but at the same time there is a lot of American influence here. For example, there are signs in Spanish and then on the same sign there is the English translation, or the fact there is Burger King and Church’s chicken located in many areas in the city I am currently living in. However at the same time there are so many differences. But like I kept chanting to myself on the plane to Puerto Rico, “I CAN NOT COMPARE!”

The people here are amazingly nice. They speak rather fast with a thick accent so it makes understanding them rather difficult at times. Sometimes when they realize I am not a Spanish speaker they will resort to english, which I love and hate, because all I want to do here is learn Spanish not practice my English. The last program I did was through USAC (which is amazing for people who leave the country the first time and don’t speak another language well.) This time I went through NSE and I am so glad because I am WAY more immersed in the community and language here. There are only 5 Americans here, which makes it necessary to speak Spanish to communicate with everybody in the exchange program. Also I am enrolled in classes that only speak Spanish. With being here for only eleven days I am already thinking way more in Spanish and find it hard to put my brain back into English. Which makes writing this even more entertaining because I want to say some words in English and Spanish…One would say I am currently perfecting my Spanglish haha.

It is a bit difficult because I currently do not have any internet at my apartment because internet companies down here want you to be involved for an entire year and not just a semester (which makes sense.) This makes doing any homework difficult and makes my motivation to complete it, very low. At the same time I like not having that much connection to the internet and keeping more to myself rather then always being on the phone.

I feel as if I have so much to say and explain, and I don’t know where to begin or end.  I want to talk about how different everything is and how beautiful is but there are so many that I would be writing for many hours everyday..

But I will end my rant on this note,, Puerto Ricans are amazing people and they remind me why I love traveling because if you are open to meeting people and getting out of your comfort zone, one can meet so many great people and have countless adventures! IMG_4816IMG_4833

PS. I know I am not that great of a writer however I do hope I can convince/inspire somebody out there to travel/study abroad. It is the best decisions I have ever made and I know it is hard and scary (The first time I ever left the US was when I went abroad to Costa Rica and I am the only one of my family to do so.) but I promise it is an experience of a lifetime!

Inappropriate Words over Frozen Yogurt

I work at a frozen yogurt shop here in Durango, Co. It has been around 80 degrees (Fahrenheit) pretty much all day, which causes a lot of people wanting frozen yummy treats. Which is typically great for the business and for whomever is working. I had a great time working, and enjoyed all of my customers!

There was a group of girls around Junior High/Middle School that sat down to eat their yogurts. I would occasionally glance over and (not meaning to) overhear their conversation. Some of the topics they talked about, one could just roll their eyes or chuckle at. (We all remember our Junior/Middle school years.) However, I overheard something that made my heart just drop.

Their conversation was pointed towards some poor boy who would I guess would try and flirt with the girls. One girl stated word for word…
If he touches you just yell rape…I did that in PE during basketball..(proceeded to explain the event of basketball while laughing and eating froyo.) ” …a few girls chuckled along with the story.

What that girl said is very wrong. The only time one should yell/scream out rape is when it is about to or is happening. For young women like this to be joking about such a serious topic, is very disappointing. I do not think their parents taught them to say that, and I hope they would be just as disappointed in hearing this as I was. If I was to rant about this it would be pages upon pages long, and I have homework I am procrastinating and no one wants to read that either…because (hopefully) they would know why I would be disappointed.

I cannot even put into words how important it is to teach our youth what is acceptable to joke about and what is not. Also to teach them when to say these things and when not to.

Cheers to a Clean Start

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Hello all!
My name is Madeline, but Madi for short.
I am a proud Coloradoan, and have been born and raised in this beautiful mountainous state.
I attend Fort Lewis College, and currently a Public Health and Spanish double major.
I have traveled to Costa Rica, and soon Puerto Rico to study abroad/nationally.

My goal is to keep this blogging up so I can share my photos/adventures/thoughts/etc. with everybody when I am in Puerto Rico and some time after that.

I cannot say this blog will the best blog one would ever read, but I will try my best try at this and see where it takes me!